The New Year has a few days to its credit now. OKC is completely iced over. I mean seven wrecks on a ten mile drive. The funny thing is the roads aren't that bad. Don't get me wrong I wouldn't leave the house, if I didn't have to, but if I did, the roads are doable. People just don't seem to grasp a simple concept of physics. Let gravity do the work, don't punch the gas or stomp the brakes.

I want to start yoga or tai chi. Something that I can get a workout that's very very low impact. Something peaceful. Something that will take my mind off of things. Now if I could only find the time to do it.

My brother has been home for the holiday break. At first it was ok. But the second minute I started having problems. I want to know when he thought it would be ok to treat me like the shit on his boot or the dead skunk on the highway stinkin to high heaven. I don't want to sound like Rodney Dangerfeild but I'm gettin no respect. There are a few people in one's life that are supposed to respect ya no matter what. That's your family. Lately, my brother has forgotten that. I understand his sense of humor and I know he thinks he's joking, but his comments still hurt. He disrespects me, my car, my life and when I call him on it he calls me psycho. I didn't think that wanting respect was psychotic. I thought that him going to Stillwater and living on his own away from my parents would force him to grow up and start treating people right. But it's gotten worse not better.

Classes start on Monday. I'm kinda excited about it. And I'm kinda disappointed. I almost made a career change the other day. ok technically just change jobs, but ya know. SkyWest was hiring flight attendants. I've heard the horror stories and everything, but I can't help but think that I would absolutely love that kind of traveling. I know don't really get to see the places you fly to, but it's constantly going not stuck in the same place time all the time doing the same thing. It is very appealling to an easily bored person such as myself. But I didn't take it. I wouldn't be able to go to school if I were always in the air. I need to finish school. Even if I don't work in the field I got my degree in I still have a degree. That's all that really matters. Maybe I'll try again sometime in the future.

For now my eyes are set on moving out. I'm trying to find a place I can afford on my own but that's doesn't look like that's happening so.... I'll keep looking.

Ciao bella.