I'm back....

I went to Stillwater this weekend to hang with my brother and some friends, and it proved to be an interesting weekend. Friday night was long and I didn't really sleep. Saturday was a long day. It was the bedlam game. My bank had a tailgate party where all the big wigs of the bank hung out before, during half time, and after the game. I hobnobbed. It was kinda fun. Cole and his buddies were on Channel 5. Then mom was on Channel 5. All because of the festivities.

I finally met Cole's roommates. They are very sweet girls. They fit perfectly in Cole's needs of roommates. From what I can see it is a very working relationship.

Saturday night's parties were a little boring. I guess I just didn't feel very connected. In Lubbock I could find a number of people to talk to at any party. I didn't know them until that night. But it's been very different since I moved back. I don't know what really happened to change it. Maybe it was the move itself.

I need a friend. Ya know the saying the grass is greener on the other side. Well, the grass may be greener but ya still gotta cut it. I don't really know where I'm going with this but it's out there. Make of it what you will.

I'm tired. I don't know what to write. So I'm going to quit.

A Potpourri of Stuff

Today's thoughts are geared more toward the events of the last week.

Yesterday empires were toppled, traditions crushed, and one curse that has plagued an entire city was broken. Congratulations to the Red Sox. I've been a fan of the Sox for a little bit now, thank you Nate. I have no where near the dedication of the entire city of Boston nor my friend Nate, but I am happy for the team. However, I thought the Curse of the Bambino was stronger than the players and their season. That being said I would like to ponder what is about to happen in the world of baseball because of this win. The Yankees whole power came with the trade of Babe Ruth. They have held baseball not just the Red Sox in the palm of their hands since 1918. With the curse broken, will the Yankees fall apart? Will the Sox now become baseball's powerhouse? What about the other mediocre teams in the AL and NL? Will their future seasons have a better result than the previous? What is to become of baseball as we know it? Next season will tell.

I talked to my brother last night. It was great to talk to him. He's staying in Stillwater next semester, which is good. I'm going up there this weekend. YAY! It's bedlam weekend and Halloween at that. It's gonna be crazy. His roommate's boyfriend is havin a party. Costume. I can't wait. I really can't wait.

Tomorrow is my Gramma's birthday. I haven't been back to her grave since the funeral. I know I need to go, but I'm really nervous about doing so. I know I'm going to cry. I'm about to cry right now just typing about it. It's just something I have to do that I've been putting off in true procrastinator style.

I was standing in line to get a transcript today and an older black man got in line behind me and started talking to me. I was a little hestitant at first, just like I always am when a stranger talks to me. But he was telling me his story about taking 12 hours and working full time. But then he said something else. He said, I know it's no excuse, I'm not giving up. Giving up would be too easy. I was sure to tell him thank you for telling me that. It's what I needed to hear. It's what I needed to tell Joey. So if you're reading, giving up would be the easy way out.

I think I'm done with the thoughts for today.
Have a good one.
Muah!!!!!

Why is leaving so hard?

So I went to Lubbock this weekend, just got back about 30 minutes ago. I don't think I can go back again. Being with Patrick again was wonderful. It was like we never broke up. We went party hopping Friday night. All the parties were pretty mediocre but we were hanging out again. I had fun; it was good seeing everybody again, and I know for certain that moving back to OKC was the best thing for me to do. But that's not why I can't go back. I need to move on with my life. Saying goodbye again would be too hard. When he opened the door and I saw him again everything came back. Everything I felt for him came rushing back. I thought I had gotten over him. But...... My only stop on the drive home was on the side of the road so I could cry. I can't do that to myself again.

Good night and
Goodbye!

Singing in the shower

I can't wait for tomorrow. I'm going to Lubbock for the weekend. Going to the Tech/Texas game, hopefully. But ya know what else? Even with how excited I am about seeing Katie and Joey, I am just that nervous about seeing everyone else and actually having fun. I haven't really had fun in I don't know how long, sometime last year. I'm wanting to move on with my life, but if I do am I betraying people in Lubbock. I wouldn't think so but, for some reason it feels that way. Anyway, I'm not worrying about that and am going to forget about it.

So singing in the shower....I had a class today for work and it was actually pretty fun. In the getting to know you part we were all asked a question from this list of odd questions. Mine was actually "Do you prefer the toilet paper to unravel from the top or bottom?" Yeah. A friend of mine was asked if she sang in the shower. Ok sure we've all been thru these type of things with the same type of questions, and I have to before this, yet for some reason it was oddly fun and entertaining.

I really need to move out and soon. Don't get me wrong I love my parents, but I'm 20 and need to be on my own. My dad says things are different and he and mom know I'm growing up and they have let go. That's what he says. and keeps saying and tells himself and me.

But enough rants.....g'nite!

Today's Thoughts

I'm not really sure what I want to write about today. I'm going to Lubbock this weekend. I can't wait. I'll get to see everybody. Namely Katie, Joey, and Patrick. I'm getting more and more excited yet apprehensive about seeing Patrick.

This last weekend was interesting. My friend Tyler who is a Marine came home on leave before going to Afganistan. So he through a shindig. I was having fun for awhile. It it wasn't a bad night at all. Just not spectacular.

Ok so I'm bored. and pretty much brain dead. so I'm going to quit typing.

State Question 712

While a great peice of literature, I gracefully retract my previous post regarding my negative stance on State Question 712. Upon further investigation I have found that supporting this referendum is the right thing to do.

State Question 712

Many have seen commercials, billboards, and other media advertising a yes vote for State Question 712. I am taking this opportunity to say vote NO.

State Question 712 is designed to take money from tribal casinos and put that money into our state's education system, to give more money to our teachers. I am not against our teachers being paid more. I am against where the money in coming from. In a state where our heritage is rich in diversity and has a strong Indian population, how can our Congressman and Senators even consider a bill like this? How can our government take even more from these people?

Money from tribal casinos is not making just one person rich. This money is used for the functions of that sovereign tribe. It supports that tribe's hospital, welfare system, and Johnson O'Malley. Why would our government want to take that away?

Besides there is not a lack of funds to pay our teachers' salaries. Our state government has a lack of priorities. Our Congressmen and Senators will try to take care of their pet projects first. For example, a Congressman from Muskogee entered a bill a year ago into committee saying that all barbecue restaurants must supply their guests with hot towels only, no paper napkins. How is this more important than our children's education?

If our state would fund education first, we would not need to even entertain this atrocity of legislation. Our state has a very unique formula that puts our taxes and other resources to work for our schools. There are only approximately three other states in the nation with this same formula: Maryland and Ohio are examples.

So instead of going to the polls and voting yes on 712, write to your Congressman and Senator and let them know of your disappointment. Spread the word to other Oklahomans of the poor job our state government is doing. Do not sit back and let this bill pass.



Thank You.

Thank God

I'm at school working out of this little cyber cafe. Great accomplishment for the guys who put it together. Joke compared to what I've seen possible. O well, I'm in OKC. Can't expect much. Then I just remembered that The Ranch streams live over the internet. Awoohoo. I miss texas country. People here just don't understand the beauty of it. Thank you Katie for showing me.

I just took a test in my religions class over christianity. It hurt my head. Tho i think that was more from sinuses than the test. But the test had a little bit to do with it. I'm feeling a little better than yesterday. So that's good.

Ok...I still can't figure out how to link chad and then cole's websites to this one so here are their addresses if ya want to check em out. http://chadlattin.blogspot.com and then http://wwwrockhead.blogspot.com so there you go.

I'm really tired of workin all the frickin time and not having any money at all. It's really upsetting. I don't even get paid for another week and $272 is already dedicated to go somewhere other than the bank. than I have a road trip coming up and I need that money.

I think I want to go back to Texas.

I met someone. I met a few someone's actually. But this one in Stillwater. Ok we haven't actually met. We might've when we were in middle school or something but I don't exactly remember. Hopefully we'll meet up next weekend in Stillwater. We'll see. You know me. No expectations, so no hopes to get up and then be let down.

I sent an email to my boss to say that I needed to get the 23rd off to go back to Lubbock to tie up some loose ends. Well I forgot I wrote that and sent it to my mom also so she saw my schedule for the next month and had to ask what loose ends. "Didn't I take care of everything before I left?" I think there's really only one loose end. Patrick. But now thinking about him, I think the only loose end with him is just giving him his belt back. I think I am over him. Finally. Sigh*

I'm done. I'm out like the fat kid in dodgeball.

:p

I think I'm sick. My head hurts, my nose is running, my eyes are watery, and I don't think there is any more air in my head to get out. I don't like being sick. Besides that, I'm here by myself. When ya move back in with your parents, it's for cheaper rent and mom to take care of you when you're sick. But mom is at DisneyWorld. There's something extremely wrong with this situation.
I should be studying for a test tomorrow but I really don't wanna.

ok I just saw a commercial for Polly Pocket's Party Bus. Do these toy makers and advertisers really know what happens in a Party Bus? Why would a good parent of a sound mind even want to get their daughter this toy?

I'm done. my head hurts too much. I'm going to sleep. Yes at 8 o clock at night.

Better now....

Today turned out to be one hell of a day. I felt like I was about to cry all day. Then tonight, not more than 10 minutes ago, my entire day has been turned around. I can now sleep easy. Thank God. I just wish it had happened earlier today. No. I take that back. I'm just grateful that it happened. Yes I'm being ambiguous, on purpose. Never again will that happen.
Anyway, it's going to be a tight month. Damn Luther cops. I went to court last night and was fined $232 for following to close. My dad was stopped by the same damn cop only 15 hours after me. He went to court and was fined $232 for 10 miles over the speed limit. It was nothing but a moneymaking night. There had to be 200 people there last night. Those of you at home keeping up with math that's $46,400. In one night.
O well I think I'm done for tonight.
Muah

Back down again...

So last weekend was Ol' Timers Day in my town. The day was lot of fun. I saw a lot of people that I haven't even thought of in a year or two. The street dance that night was alright. Of course no one knew how to dance. Just my luck. For those that know how well I dance, I have room to say no one knew how. I had a lot of fun at Uncle Jackie's make shift bar. The White Trash Saloon. That was fun. I met a fella. He didn't know how to dance, so I showed him how to two step. Not bad all in all. But of course he then turned out to be an asshole. I'll find out in a couple days just how much of an asshole, but we'll leave it at that for now. I wish I would've gone home with my mom. Funny huh? Well, I don't know what else to say. I just want to cry.